創作者需要足夠的脆弱，才能讓世界看見真正的自己——《哈姆奈特》金球獎得獎感言

By 一樹｜雨露均占

在第83屆金球獎上，《哈姆奈特》（Hamnet）奪下劇情類最佳影片。值得留意的是導演趙婷在得獎感言中，分享了一段關於藝術家存在方式的話：創作者需要足夠的脆弱，才能讓世界看見真正的自己。（原文請參考文末）

對於長期閱讀牌卡、進行解讀的人，聽到這段話真的感到無比熟悉！

藝術家所說的「被看見」，在占卜的語言裡其實早已存在。那是一種把內在經驗帶到牌象裡的展露與察覺過程。當人坐在桌前抽牌時，往往會試圖維持某種形象。有人希望顯得理性，有人努力表現堅強。牌面卻常常輕輕揭開另一層情緒。恐懼、羞愧、遺憾與渴望慢慢浮現。這個過程有時讓人不安，急著想要否定、甚至劃清界線，但若然能開放心胸地觀察（Open your heart），沒準能為生命帶來新的理解。人一旦看見自己的情緒，很多事情就會變得清晰。

塔羅常用圖像來進行內在敘事，雷諾曼則以更直接的象徵提醒人們：所有真正的連結，都從誠實開始。

這樣說來，藝術創作與占卜閱讀其實有相似之處。兩者都在處理一種「揭露」。

趙婷在致辭中談到創作者必須把自己交給世界。這句話讓我想到雷諾曼牌中的〈心〉。這張牌很簡單，一顆紅色的心。它象徵情感的核心，也象徵誠實的表達。當〈心〉出現在牌陣中時，訊息通常十分直接：事情需要被感受，需要被說出。人若持續隱藏情緒，關係很難真正發生。

藝術在某種程度上正是這樣的行為。創作者把那些難以言說的部分帶到舞台或銀幕上。觀眾在觀看時會突然辨認出某些熟悉的感受。那一刻，陌生人之間產生連結。如同 Hamnet 的過世為父母帶來喪子之痛，經莎翁之手轉化成戲劇舞台作品 Hamlet ，則讓後世也能代入和共鳴到這份本應只是私領域的 Parenthood 情感，悲從中來。藝術之所以具有療癒力量，正是在於轉化與披露。

《哈姆奈特》在金球獎舞台上的那一刻，也許正提醒著我們這件事。在一個高度包裝的時代，人們習慣展示整理過的形象。藝術家卻反覆證明另一條道路。當一個人願意讓世界看見真正的自己，作品便開始擁有生命。

占卜時，我習慣把這樣的時刻視為一種象徵訊息。它像一張牌被翻開，提醒人重新思考自己的位置。如果你願意停下來觀察，不妨問一下自己：在生活的舞台上，你多大程度上允許自己被看見？

全文節錄：「Thank you. Thank you so much. Thank you. Thank you to the Golden Globe voters and to our co-producers Liza, Sam, Pipa, Nick, and especially to Sam Mendes who sent me the book by Maggie O'Farrell, Hamnet. I love the book, but I felt there was really only one filmmaker on the face of the planet who could tell this story of Agnes and Will and the spirits of the earth and the forest, and that was the exceptional, exceptional, exceptional Khloe.

I just want to say that the village of Hamnet that made this film together, many... there's some of them lost their loved ones while we were making this film and there are some of them are still struggling. So we just want to say that we're thinking of you. We're here because of you and we love you and miss you.

And I just... Paul said something to me this morning. Is it okay if I share? Sure. Okay. Yeah. He said that making Hamnet made him realize that the most important thing of being an artist is learning to be vulnerable enough to allow ourselves to be seen for who we are, not who we ought to be, and to give ourselves fully to the world, even the parts of ourselves that we're ashamed of, that we're afraid of, that are imperfect. So the people that we speak to, they can also learn to see themselves and fully accept themselves.

And I look around this room, there are so many of you that I have known for many, many years, my incredible fellow nominees. And I'm looking at you, Ryan Coogler. I'm looking at you, Sundance Labs—I taught you how to make a fire in your room because it was cold in your room—but I'm looking at you and I see so many of you have become so strong and tender at the same time, and you have shared so much of yourselves in your work to the world. So I salute to your bravery and I salute your dedication. And let's do this together. Let's keep our hearts open and let's keep seeing each other and let's keep allowing ourselves to be seen. Thank you.」

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